Saturday, September 20, 2014

KIDS

CarolAnn Edscorn
This short story had several concepts: Telling a story mostly through dialog; using common cliches to illustrate common truths; and, reversing human ideas of normal.

KIDS


“Did you brush your teeth, dear?”
“MOM!”
“Well, your last check-up, dear--”
“Mom, just chill.  I’ve lived long enough to know how to take care of myself.”
“Yes, dear.” Quiet. “Did you remember to use--”
“Deodorant? Yes. And I have on clean underwear.” Slender and pale, Kyren popped out of her bedroom. Shimmering auburn waves framed an elfin face. “Mom, I even have on matching socks AND shoes, and a seasonably warm yet stylish wool coat purchased ON SALE," Kyren smiled, “at SAKS.  I am on my way to work, Mom. Remember?”
Kyren’s dancing sky blue eyes connected with her mother’s deep ocean blue ones. Italian driving mocs tread softly across the polished parquet maple.
Mom looks so small, Kyren noticed. Her mom looked frail, snuggled on the rocker, a soft pink blanket tucked around her. Kyren bent down to kiss her good bye. Delicate fingers reached up to caress her face.
“Love you, Kyren.”
“Love you, Mom.”
They rocked together for a few moments. “Gotta run, Mom.”
She heard a soft sigh.
“Is your brother up? Is your little sister moving?”
“Mom.”
“Sorry.”
Kyren gave a quick peck on Mom’s cheek, picked up her Armani suede hand bag, and strode to the entry. “I’ll check on Linnis. Bye, Mom!”
“Bye, dear,” came quietly from the rocker.
Her sister’s bedroom was still in shadow. Kyren sighed. The room looked like Filene’s Basement Store after a clearance sale—an angora sweater draped a chair, five (or six?) designer jeans were strewn about the floor. There were hats, scarves and shoes tossed about.
And the lumpy goose down comforter was a sure indication of Linnis’ whereabouts.
“Linnis! Move! You’re late again! You’ll be late for your own funeral!”
“I can live with that,” came the muffled response. Kyren’s response was cut short by the radio alarm.
“KISS 108, Boston’s number one rock-"
A hand shot out of the covers and smashed the clock to the floor.
“Linnis.”
“What?”
“Linnis!”
“What?”
“I’ve got to go. Love you.”
“Mutual.”
Kyren smiled, shrugged into her tailored camel overcoat, and started out the door. She paused and gazed back.
“Evad! I’m going! Remember to pick up the dry cleaning. Love you!”
A tall figure loomed at the end of the hall. Kyren’s features clearly came from her mother—Irish, fair and sunny. Evad had his father’s Mediterranean dark looks. He had his Palm Pilot™ in hand, keying the touch pad.
“Dry cleaning. Got it. Love you. Have a great day. Linnis up yet?”
“Hey, she’s lived long enough to know about consequences. See you.”
“Ciao.” Evad wore a creamy, 310 thread count Egyptian cotton shirt and tan slacks. Not as tailored as his sister, as he loved softer casual clothing.
“Evad, is that you?”
“Yes, Mom—and my teeth are brushed, hair is combed, clothing pressed and tummy full.”
“My darling boy.”
His mother’s condescension didn't bother him, even though he was an adult. Especially since his father died, he understood his Mom’s need to, well, mother.
“Evad, is Linnis up?”
The sound of running water echoed down the hall.
“Yep.” He heard his mother sigh. He crossed to the rocker. His height only made his mom look smaller. He bent over and hugged her. “I might be a little late for dinner.”
“Oh, Evad…”
“I have a new client and the floor plans and fabric swatches are pulled together. I need to locate some furnishings to round out the project.”
“I am so proud of you, son. It only your father—“
“Mom, enough. Don’t go maudlin on me! It’s so easy for me to catch your emotions. I have to be focused today!”
“Yes, Evad,” she brightened. “I love the beard, dear.”
“Doesn't make me look too young?”
“No, dear. You look debonair.”
“Thanks, Mom. You’re awesome.”
“Have a great day!”
“You too, Mom. Love you, bye.”
“Did you brush—“
“Yes, Mom. BYE!”
“Bye, son.”
The mother heard the front door latch close, heard the shower shut off, heard Linnis humming, the street traffic from below. Memories filtered through the sunbeams playing in the motes, danced through her mind and heart. From her perch on the rocker she could see the family photographs—her ‘rogue gallery’—and vacation souvenirs and school awards.
Her favorite mementos were set on the mantle, encased in crystal domes, one for each birth.
Linnis bounced into the parlor, towel drying her hair. Her 40 pound back pack thumped the floor.
“All in black, dear? Oh, Linnis. Those baggy jeans—are there enough chains hanging on them?”
“Match the ones on my neck, Momsy.”
“Black lipstick? My dear, the eyeliner—why, you have too much kohl on. And your finger nails! Oh, dear.”
“Only young once, Mom.”
“I know.”
Linnes saw little shimmers in her mother’s eyes. “Mom don’t, Mom, no crying—Mom!”
“I just keep thinking that if your father was still alive…”
“Mom, it’s just a color,” Linnis knelt by the small figure and wrapped her thin arms about her mom.
“Hey, hey now, I’m okay, dear.”
Linnis hugged tighter, willing the tears away. The sniffles stopped.
“Linnis! You’re thinner!”
“Lost some weight.”
“Not again, dear.”
“Happens, Momsy. It’s just weight.”
“Oh my darling—each of my darlings—each birth so different, each child so unique…you've always had a flair for the dramatic, my Linnis.”
“I know, Momsy. Hey, I've got to catch the bus. Would you like apple or orange juice before I go?”
“I don’t know.”
“I’ll get you prune juice!”
“No! Soy milk, vanilla.”
Linnis danced into the kitchen, filled a bottle with soy milk, and warmed it. Watching her mom age was tough. She was so small, so fragile, so dependent! Her father’s passing, while expected, had been heart wrenching. She pranced back into the parlor, the bottle of warmed soy milk held high like a banner. She scooped up her mother, pink blanket and all, and waltzed about the living room.
“Linnis! Linnis! Put me down! Oh, my gosh! Linnis! Stop!”
Spinning, gliding and hopping, Linnis hugged her mother close to her heart.
“Linnis! I’ll spit up!”
That stopped the twirling.
“Um. Spit up on black is not good.” Mother and daughter gazed at one another.
“You’re a good egg, dear. Now put me down.”
“In the rocker?”
“No dear, I need to lie down.”
Linnis lovingly carried her mother, swaddled in pink fleece, to the old Jenny Lind in a shadowed corner of the room.
“Nannie will be here any moment. You’d best run, Linnis love. Don’t miss the bus.”
Linnis laid her mother down gently, handed her the bottle, placed the silver rattle (a precious and comforting remembrance) within her reach. She leaned down to kiss the cherubic cheek.
“Momsy?”
“Yes, sweetheart?”
“Well, Evad is so old, he is so involved in his responsibilities, being the last born…”
“Yes, princess?”
“And Kyren has begun, y’know, the change of life. But she still has years left. But, Mom…”
“Yes, sweetheart?”
“Does it hurt Are you comfortable, Mom?”
Her mother’s gaze wandered to the mantle piece.
“No, Linnis, it doesn't hurt. The only discomforts are gas and a soiled nappie, and that’s mostly embarrassing.” Honesty brings quietude.
“You miss Daddy?”
“Yes.”
They were silent then, the first born daughter and her mother.
“Better run now, princess.”
“Yeah. Love you Momsy.”
“Love you, Linnsy.”
Linnis dashed to the entry way, snatching up her back pack. She paused at the open door and gazed back at her mother.
Her mother was looking at the three mementos of the births of her children, each born as adults. Her youngest, Evad, had come in a shell of slate blue. Her middling, soft but self-assured, had stepped out of an opalescent egg of azure and pink. And her first born, her forthright adventuress, had literally danced out of a canary yellow shell.
Good memories. Good adults.
“Momsy?”
“Yes, dear?”
“Is it scary? Growing young?”
“Not when you have a wonderful family, Linnis.”
Nannie had just come down the hall from the elevator, so Linnis quietly walked away. Nannie closed the door softly and tip toed to where mother slept.
“Oh, you precious thing,” she whispered.
Mother’s eyes were closed, a drop of soy milk glistened on her lips. The bottle had rolled out of her little hand, but the other fingers had a firm grip on the silver rattle. Nannie picked up the baby bottle, tucked the blanket around her, and tenderly stroked the curly wisps of auburn hair.
“Sure and ‘tis true, what folk say,” she murmured. "Babies are sure close to Heaven.”



END




 

CarolAnn Edscorn
January 01, 2004 – Original
September 19, 2014 - transcribed 
Jaffrey, New Hampshire 03452

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Earnest Pleading

December 2013
Celebrating 32 years
Please don’t die please stay nearby
Ideas circling mind my mind
Words looping creating manifesting
Chemical reactions affecting
Heart rate, sweat perspiring rivulets
Along responsive, susceptible skin nerves
Ending in tickling, tingling agony
Words looping into images striving
Competing for cognitive attention
For action, for plans, for plans which fail
Because people leave, interfere, push, shove
Because people leave, snort, hide, run


Because people are people plans fail and then
And then
And then
Please don’t die please stay nearby
Thoughts eddy triggering emotions
Confusion destroys plans directs options
Ally needed, hearing needed, seeing needed
You are needed
Not easy to admit not easy to understand
Not easy
It is not easy
But you are love
And so
And so
Being abandoned no longer matters or frightens
Except for one thing one future getting old so
Please don’t die
Please
Please stay nearby

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Spontaneous Planning (October 30 2010)

Birthing children
Creating Family
Destroys spontaneity
Which ironically
Is
Required
When one has children
Planning chaos
Chaotic planning
Spontaneous grocery shopping
Meals needing planning
What is next, next, next
Spontaneous napping
During
Planned television show
Planned basketball challenge
Evolving spontaneous
Snowball fights
Ah, yes!


Friday, August 15, 2014

Findings (11 5 2010)

Venice Canal

I had a dream. It was stolen, painted in a time warp by Titian, lost by the Medici’s, hung in The Hague, pilfered by Hitler, then rescued by my guardian angel and discovered in an attic in Harlem. The eager youthful artist captured a series of digital prints and posted them on YouTube, and I found my dream again. 

But I dreamt it in color, and now it was in gray tones.

Venice Canal

Friendships Are Born of Light (February 18, 2011)

1954
Once upon a time, there was a little girl whose hair had a little curl, and whose feet loved a little twirl. Spinning joyfully in sun sparkle splendor she brought into her heart and mind the fluttery whiteness of cloud and the whispery wonder of breeze. Sprawling on the grass she felt the earth spinning too, and it was good and right, to spin together with the ground and the sky.

Always seeking lightness and brightness to match the star shine in her imagination, she gazed through gauze window curtains, peeked through fire reflective maple leaves, and played piano music on the pond water which made ripples of delight for hours.

She had no idea that others did not synchronize their movement with the spinning planet around her. She did not realize that others did not dance with the breeze playing music with the oak leaves. She thought everyone knew about this type of love.

She was wrong.

After five decades mourning her loss of dance and her touching the moon beams, she keens a song of loss, howling quietly at the full moon. Then one day, her child joins her and they howl together, louder, at peace with expressing their heartache without words. Later day, a friend joins her and howls at the full moon, the white brightness casting artful shadows on her friend’s face, making new patterns of lace and loveliness there.

It was a miracle, a re-birth.

How many rainbow souls howl alone at the moon? Can we connect by riding the teasing happy wind? Can we grasp sunbeams breaking through cloud fluff and like a helium balloon lost from the grip of a child at a parade find one another in sparkies?

I am joyful, body singing lightness breath and companionship. The light shining through tree leaves is the same as the light shining through hearts, radiating from eyes, leaping galaxies from stars.

I have friends. This I know. This I trust.

Wiggle. Spin. Flap. Leap. Sing. Breathe in, out, close eyes and see the light is inside me.

It’s been there all along.

Practical Toxic Brain

 
Neurons Firing


Thinking of being a Living Organ Donor
Donating my brain
While it is still a bit useful

Nah

When it's taken out of the 
        skull casing
It will likely go PPPHHTTTTT and 
               scoot all over
The operating room like a popped balloon

Yup.







April 29, 2014

Photosynthesis: Tree stars





Trees breathing. Breathing trees, radiating life, welcoming. Step slowly, rolling from heel to toe, silent levitations as I approach best friends. Breathing slows to match the pulse of tree radiance; casual lifting arms so fingertips can caress bark, stretch out to the smooth bark on one side, and extend to stroke the rough and crackled bark on the other side.

Cool air whispers on skin and evening dew drops leap off the wild grasses to runnel long pant legs. My soul heart sends out sapphire sparkles, matching my trees, crafting layers of symphonic light. Shimmers indigo weave a comforting shroud hiding me in friendly shadows. Closing eyes, finger tips scarcely grazing gnarly bark, depth and breath entangle between trees and soul.

Infinity pace, infinity slow, toes begin a slow rise, they point, and the knee bends. Arms elevate through crisp oak scent air. Finger tips embark on a journey into cobalt air, sparkies releasing, golden human soul sparkies waltzing with silvery azure tree glow. Bending forward, inhaling deep quietude, the first toe restores its step, allowing my other foot a dancing opportunity, torso arcing, head dipping in oblation, in sacred response to life. Meeting directly overhead, arms and finger tips fashion a heart. Eyes opening, eyes wondering, the trees reflect with their limbs and branches, myriad hearts, and I see.

I see. Tree lights spinning, yielding to gentle breezes, then pausing. The gems of light are familiar. They resonate with memory. Eyes closing. Head tilting back. Eyes opening, glimpsing night sky. There. And there! Pegasus, glistening overhead—and also among the tall trees. The Seven Sisters, the Pleiades, source of summer shooting stars, twinkling, almost winking at Earth, above me, and near me between the dark trunks. Just above the horizon, barely evident, Orion, the triplet of sparkles calling me home. As I gently pivot on my back heel, there, hiding at the edge of a thicket, the tree stars mirror Orion!

Entering the center of the glade, subtle music performs a nimble melody, teasing my skin, my ears. Standing tranquil, silent runnings, the soles of my feet intermingle with dirt. Outstretched arms tickle leaves tenderly landing along my shoulders, my face.

The tree stars close about me. I hear their question. I exult in the question. I discover my answer.

“Birch.”

And the tree stars answer.