Earnest Pleading

December 2013
Celebrating 32 years

Please don’t die please stay nearby
Ideas circling mind my mind
Words looping creating manifesting
Chemical reactions affecting
Heart rate, sweat perspiring rivulets
Along responsive, susceptible skin nerves
Ending in tickling, tingling agony
Words looping into images striving
Competing for cognitive attention
For action, for plans, for plans which fail
Because people leave, interfere, push, shove
Because people leave, snort, hide, run

Because people are people plans fail and then
And then
And then
Please don’t die please stay nearby
Thoughts eddy triggering emotions
Confusion destroys plans directs options
Ally needed, hearing needed, seeing needed
You are needed
Not easy to admit not easy to understand
Not easy
It is not easy
But you are love
And so
And so
Being abandoned no longer matters or frightens
Except for one thing one future getting old so
Please don’t die
Please
Please stay nearby